i am feeling burnt out from work. 4 big projects plus 1 BIGGER project. un-cooperative client, demanding client.. i am being driven to the edge this week. i am so stressed out at work! i know i should be thankful that i am busy. but it seems that i am working to my death from all the stress. i don't want to suffer from hypertension or high blood pressure next time.

i am now squeezed between the supplier and the client. supplier expected a maximum of x number of people , but x + y people are coming. how am i going to explain to the supplier? i am watching the ugliness of singaporeans being expressed explicitly in my current work. for example, getting the best for the lowest cost, squeezing every fat out of every tiny cent they spend. well.. i understand that the economic situation is not the rosiest of all times. but hello.. where is the professionalism. 50% discounts and still asking for more. might just as well go and find freelancers to execute your work. i have overhead costs to cover. i have no bandwidth to give equal attention to all my projects. i feel like breaking down already.. super stress.. i feel like having a good cry.. i know this month is going to be bad. next month will be better. but is this going to be the career path that i want to continue eventually? i find it tiring and emotionally draining to manage client's expectations and wimps and tempers.

i can't even meet my friends out my dinners nowadays. either i am too tired from work, have to overtime or because i want to spend time alone (have enough of people interactions through the week). are my sacrifices worthwhile?