“Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus: Who, being in very nature God, did not consider equality with God something to be grasped, but made himself nothing, taking the very nature of a servant, being made in human likeness. And being found in appearance as a man, he humbled himself and became obedient to death— even death on a cross!” Philippians 2:5-8

i am very thankful that god is always there for me. he provides and meets all my needs. the feeling of emptyness fades away and a kind of new hope floods in. there is a closeness between us which i will never find in any friend. i know i have been idolising people more than god. now wanting some space for myself. to spend more time alone and with god. may it be understood. even if my actions are not understood, at least i know that god understands.

very soon, i have to start paying the uni fees back to my mum and dad on top of the allowance i give my mum every month. i have did the maths and it is quite a big sum of money. shall cut back on my expenses every weekend. anyhow, i have been managing my expenditure rather well.

develop a headache after waking up from my afternoon nap. sian man.

i miss brother robin and the times we hang out together.

i miss my paternal grandfather. he passed away when i was 13. i will never forget the evenings i spent with him at his garden. he would be watering his plants while i play with woodlice and ants. he would also bring small animals home after work and let me keep them as pets.

this is the song robin introduced to me 2 year back.