happy CNY everyone!

went to grandma's place for house visitation in the morning. had the chance to interact with some of my relatives. enjoyed talking to my aunties and uncles. it was also great to see my nephews and nieces whom i only get to meet once a year. one of my nephew just entered SJI. glad that they are doing well in their studies. i don't believe that only by entering into RI or RGS means that your studies are good. sorry no offense to those who are from the 2 schools.

after the house visitation, my parents and i went to the botanical gardens for a stroll. my dad was busily taking photographs of the flowers while my mum was trying her very best to avoid every possible ray of the sun. i saw a few huge butterflies at the ginger gardens. pretty creatures.

i wished i had a garden at home. i will turn it into a jungle...seriously. and filled it with exotic shrubs and trees with epiphytes and mosses clinging on tightly to their branches. i will throw in a few poison dart frogs here and there, a couple of mousedeers and a leopard cat that are allowed to roam freely in the jungle.

xw said to me that some of my posts are pensive. i think i am just writing how i feel. my blog will be quite fake if all my posts are happy. i am trying to be open about how i feel and think here.

one fine day not too long ago, a question came into my mind - why did god place certain kind of people in my life. there are some people whom i can learn alot through my interactions with them. and there are some who make me fall and feel lousy about myself. the second group of people overwhelmed my life at some point. however, i realised that i grew from my experiences with them when i pick myself up again. it is true, god moulds your character at every possible single circumstances if you allow him to and when you see the situation from his perspective. i also believe that you will never know how marvellous love is until you have been broken by god.

we might think that crying or breaking down are signs of emotional weakness. but remember that it is god who gave us the emotions and he hears our cries to him. it shows that we need god and he is more than willing to lift our spirits back again.

the story of joseph never fails to encourage me. the faith and trust he had in god even in the worst possible scenarios. he forgave his brothers who sold him away. how hard that must be for him. only the love of god can allow him to do that. i was thinking if joseph can do that, we should forgive our parents and friends over small petty stuffs.

3 more days of holidays to go!!