why do i have to go through these cycles of contentment and cynicalism. i wish someone would be there. it only makes me want to keep things to myself. when it becomes increasingly unnatural for me to talk about myself, my thoughts, my life in TQ.

frankly, sometimes i think that i am suffering from schizophrenia. whatever the case, it shows me some answers. which is going to affect some choices i have to make. hey, i am not feeling down or anything here. dun misinterpret. i am not tired as well. nope. not. work has taken my mind off some issues which i never really did face them. Atelophobia.

work has also made me learn something about women. they are scary. they remember every word you say.

doing motorola is definitely more straightforward than nokia. hopefully. as least no more tedious and monotonous paperwork. i am developing papyrophobia. show me maths and numbers again, i am going to burn them up.