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Did not feel like talking to anyone today. Past nights of insufficent sleep has finally takened its toll on me. The sermon by pastor liu was very good. Was encouraged.

I think it has became true. No more extraordinary. Til now, i am still looked upon as something i am not. But why should i bother? They are able to see your body but not your soul. Frankly, I am disappointed that even the closest one on earth cannot see me for who i am. I should be wary and cautious not to put people above God, it had brought my downfall time and time again. Time to make some decisions and stick with them. God or Me. Selfless or Selfish. Love or Dislike. Thankfully, there is this gift called amazing grace. Even when i am a horrible boy sometimes, God is there to bring me back to his arms and protection. He teaches me. He rebukes me. He shines his light on my darkest hours ( though not really darkest, just use that word for contrast).

It is normal to fall down benson, just pick yourself up again and move on. There are still battles ahead. No white flag friend. No white flag. You make me lie down in green pastures and leads me beside quiet waters. You restores my soul and guides me in paths of righteousness.

Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life,

and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever - Psalm23:6