i am screwed. why can't i let go of things. everything will be fine once i let go. feeling frustrated. know i am super unfriendly to people today. sorry sorry. it is a horrible feeling when you cannot express yourself freely. when there are some things that i want to do but afraid to do. some things i want to ask but scared to ask.

guess i have to learn to accept it. what had happened is in the past. this is now. slap yourself and wake up. you freaking mind! can you stop hoping? wish i have brain damage then i will not be able to think. i hate you, stupid brain! why do u always think so much!

I have to let go of what I think it should be...

Stop deciding how your day is going to unfold but allow it to reveal itself.